I need to be where I can be free to create music. I don't want to worry about getting enough sleep or working a full time job. I want to live the life I write about in my songs.
I am finding balance in my hectic schedule though, so onward I go. Each day, fighting this zombie like state that is becoming my norm. It's worth everything I am gaining. All the progress we are making with the band makes it all tolerable.
So much will change in the next month and even more after a year. I am excited for this blessed, nearly charmed life I lead. It gets better every day. I get better everyday. I can feel my growth slowly taking place, beginning with myself. Even though it is just the beginning of the process I know this is part of a bigger plan.
1. Self love, being comfortable with myself
2. Love for family that don't see things as I do and feeling close though we are separated by our ideals
3. Love for ANYONE I come in contact with, even the nasty ones (this is hard...)
4. Love for those that have hurt me (this is the hardest)