Yes, I'm the crazy one
Believe what you want
Just because you didn't see
What really happened, just don't wanna believe what I told you
Lies all day everyday about everything. How do you trust? How do you adjust? Should you? No. Not if the fool doesn't respect you. Trust and communication are the keys. Without them you have nothing
I've never lied to someone I've told I've loved. Why should I? They must love me for me in all my honesty. Otherwise it's pointless. I don't want a shaky foundation.
Security, honesty, and communication. It's harder than you'd think. If you have someone that you share all things in life including these keep them forever. It's so rare in this day and age to find.
Maybe I just have bad tatse. Maybe it's me who's a waste. Maybe I'm too honest and it scares people. Maybe I expect "too much" even though it's only the bare minimum of love.
Alone. That's where I'm seeking love. And each day I get closer. Once I secure the love for myself ,deeply, I will never fall for some worthless mutt again. I am a Queen and I deserve to be loved, truly loved. No forcing or faking my way through this life to find it.
On my own until a true love comes along. It's worth the wait and less heartache if I can hold on. I know that it may seem crazy. But nothing else has worked for me. Tired of feeling down on me. Working to appreciate myself. If I succeed, I will never feel worthless again.
That is a greater treasure than the love of another; True and deep love of oneself
Looks are deceiving.
I seem sweet, but within I've become quite salty.
Head pounding from an emotional hangover. I feel drunk, but I don't drink. I had sunk, but no one saw me sink.
Makes it hard to focus or get out of bed without exclaiming about my aching head, but I'm happy to report that at least I'm not dead ;)
** Make sure to love yourself enough to see the emotional hangovers you carry over from day to day. Everyone will feel this way at one point in their lives and its totally normal. When it becomes a daily hangover, stop and look deep inside yourself. Acknowledge the issue(s) and work your hardest to change the behaviors that lead you back to the hangover. I am and will always be working on me. You should always strive to be the best you can be. I believe in you. You are enough <3
I don't believe in an entity, but
The cause and effect I clearly
see in the day to day
I never felt that way when I would
We may disagree on many things,
but the goal remains the same:
to live better each day and
along the way
We may not see eye to eye and that's
There are things that bind us still
and you can see it more clearly when you take away
We are more similar than we can sometimes see
only human, you and me
I'm glad we can speak about
MY anger, YOUR anger
Let us continue to
All I have for you is
I was on Facebook four days ago minding my own business when suddenly it kicked me off. It has my account blocked until Facebook verifies a photo I sent when it first blocked me out of my account. They still haven't confirmed my identity and there is no way to reach them. Oh well, Facebook is a hassle anyways. So, if you've tried to open up my music page and it's not working on there this is why. Not sure if or when they might actually get around to doing their job and unblocking me from my own account. Fools.
Anywho... Two shows next weekend!!! 23rd I'm back at Arroga's in Camp Hill thanks to DEG live acts. I'll be there from 8-11 pm. 24th I'll be kicking things off at Capital Gastropub in Harrisburg for the Millenium music conference 7-7:45 pm. Hope to see you there!
Hey guys! Thanks for checking in! I've been absent on the blog for some time now. I'll try my best to be better at social media and the website this year. Last night I was back at The Vegetable Hunter in Harrisburg and it was awesome. I freaking love that place and the wonderful people who own it and their workers. They always make it all worth it. Had a good crowd most of the night and everyone had a great time. Couldn't have asked for a better night :) Next two shows are 2/23/18 at Arooga's in Camp Hill on the bypass 8 pm-11 pm and 2/24/18 at Capitol Gastropub for the Millennium Music Conference 7 pm -7:45 pm. Come on out!
There is so much going on in the world today. I let it stress me out quite often. I am starting to learn ways to make a stand and be more involved so I may stress a little less knowing I did my part. I will always do what I feel is truly right.
What I really mean to speak on now is the importance of Love. Do not mistake me for meaning romance. I'm speaking of pure Love. How do you love your mother, father, brother(s), sister(s), other family, even your friends? Fiercely, you truly understand Love there. That needs to be shared.
We are all one human family. No matter our race, religion, sexual orientation, or any other point people can use for separation from the fact that we are all
in this together. Let's love like never before. It's really easy to do: Love all, treat everyone with respect, and don't be a jerk. Simple. If we all act in love towards everyone we know the world will change for the better.
Grow in self-love and spread it everywhere🙏❤️
I've been telling myself all year: "If I just keep running towards the light I'll make it out and soon take flight." Endless though this tunnel may seem I feel victory is near. Currently, I am all out of sorts, beginning to doubt that I will one day make it out. Feeling as if I'm under water today. It is just a feeling. I know i can really breathe whenever I please. A heaviness has overcome me these last few weeks. I cannot seem to will myself to be productive of late. As I feel the pressure of non-productivity surround me, I start to pick up the pace running towards the light.
I fall in the darkness, cutting my leg, forcing me to limp. I continue to make progress, telling myself "As long as you don't give up, you will make it." I know I will not be out as quickly as I had hoped, not with my injuries...
-THEY GO OUT EVERY WEEKEND-
The breath is stolen from my lungs.
-HE'S TAKING HER TO EUROPE-
I can feel the tears overtake me.
-THEY ARE GOING FOR A MONTH AS "FRIENDS"-
I'll believe that when Hell freezes over! I cannot see through my tears. I pray to go blind, so I don't have to see them together. This is what has been screwing me all up. Allowing my emotions to control me. Emotions I should not have had for over a year, but that I allowed. So many things have changed. It's over forever and I know that, but I'm still processing it all.
I must simply laugh at their misfortune... They deserve each other. The most two-faced couples are bound to be soulmates! I know that my power is revealed by my reactions. So, I choose to laugh at their wretchedness not fall apart and die. I will bandage my injuries and I will carry on. I will get out of my personal Hell, grow my wings back, and fly as far from here as I can from this pain. "Do not cry, sensitive one, run so that you may fly."
Don't forget to check out my band's website at www.somethingelseband1.weebly.com
We are a funky folk duo. We call our developing genre "groove grass". Our next show is January 24th at Cornerstone Coffeehouse in Camp Hill, PA. :)
Happy holidays to all!
This morning I am reading a book I've borrowed from a friend over a year ago. And I wonder if they remember if I still have it 😁
Reflections in the Light: Daily Thoughts and Affirmations by Shakti Gawain. Today's thought was about sensing the powerful being of true beauty, power, and magic in you and others.
Here are the thoughts I had when I read it:
I am mighty. I have always been that way. That part of me is still around, just needs some dusting off. Truthfully, it will take a great deal of digging on my part to release that powerful spark inside of me. It's been a decade I've felt this way. A decade. Buried more each year. I let it happen. I was recently told "That's the American thing to do; get in trouble not paying attention and then trying to backpedal really fast." That's what has happened to me.
This year I have hit some major highs and lows. Unlike other years I feel my strength coming back to me. After a series of decisions I'll forever be grateful for; the past two weeks have left me feeling fierce, strong, and gaining ground to making it stick. I'm braver than I think. I need to grow again and to get back my social skills. I've not always been so backwards. I've been hurt by so many people close to me. I am terrified of closeness in general, with new people especially. But, if I desire to expand then I must push myself beyond my comfort zones.
There is a powerful soul within me and within you. Let's get to them! 💗
Keeping people on their toes since '88!